in the darkness

Faith and Doubt

you promised you would be there
to catch me if i fall
to pull me to my feet
to walk with me this path

you promised you would be there
to answer when i knocked
to cheer me when i'm down
laugh with me when there's joy

to share my darkest secrets
to relieve me of my burden
to give and give and never receive
can anyone be so selfless?

but you said, you promised
your words left in a book
i look to you for strength
i look to you for guidance

but sometimes, just sometimes
i look but you're not there
i shout but no one answers
i pray but nothing changes

i'm falling and i'm scared
will you be waiting below
or will reality hit me
a cruel, vicious blow

those who have faith
will someday see
but it is hard to believe what you do not see
and whose presence you cannot confirm

humans falter
look for reassurance
are you really there
can you hear us calling

i look for you in myself
in others
in all imaginable places
but still i do not know

are you really there
all-seeing and all-knowing
will you really catch me
are you there at all

i know it is wrong to doubt in you
since i have chosen to follow you
but sometimes, just sometimes
i don't know if you hear

i put in you my faith
my pain and my joy
all given up to you
my very being

through my trials and tribulations
i know you will be there
walking beside me ,carrying me through
your footprints in the sand.