sometimes i know someone up there has found me
sometimes i know someone up there has found me
and i now no longer walk alone this road
heyy!! the hols officially start tmr! official to me anyway coz its the first monday in months that we dont have to be in sch...and we can actually waste our time the way we want to instead of being forced to spend six hrs in sch daily wasting time. wowee. sounds so promising :
haha..jkjk.. dunno y i absolutely had to start off on such a pessimistic note..lolx..we dont actually waste time in sch..haha...i gez learning abt things thats onli applicable to examinations is the way schools equip us for life and i honestly feel they are doing enough ;)
ok..ahaha..to whoever actually got the joke..i hope its not too lame..sorry..im being lame.
ok. stop lameness right now.
wasnt too happy with my ppr for last term and i promised myself i wld try my bloody hardest for once to bring my l1r5 to at least a respectable grade that wldnt make me feel like digging a hole and hiding inside everytime i look at my ppr. so i shall try my very very best to fulfill my promise to myself [how do you break a promise to yourself??!!] and fa fen du shi starting from nxt term! now thats coming from a veri veri ill-disciplined person so i wldnt expect too much in case i get disappointed. but the whole point of promising sth is to ensure that e other party wldnt get disappointed isnt it??! so whats the point of promising sth and den go, sorry i think you'll be disappointed so can you not place too much hopes on me. ! nvm. hahaha..some contradictions of life. everybodys scared to fall but the point is if u dont give yourself that fear in that first place you wont push yourself to jump over instead of falling str down. but at the same time you dont want to be too disappointed if you dont make it over and end up falling. get it?? haha...ok..
anyway.. so the main point in my long long story is that we have to have faith in ourselves and those ard us [esp God]. sorry if you feel cheated that after bringing you ard such a gigantic bush you end up looking at my weeds of philosophy. hahaha. it was todays gospel that had me thinking abt that..haha.. sorry if i sound like some religious lunatic aka helen choo but how can you possibly not think after listening to sth??!? sorry..at least im not forcing you to listen to me while you're standing and sweating on the grass while im strolling ard in some disgusting dress on the specs stand and forcing you to stand and look at me while i preach what i obviously do not practise..haha.. so be grateful..lolx.. jkjk.
so nxt time i shall not be afraid to study like shit and see if i do well. but for some weird reason i nv seem to be able to feel disappointed in myself. i mean other pple yes, of course but i never seem to feel like ive let myself down or sth. or even feel any remorse or regret at my high l1r5. dont noe y too. its like i noe dat i shldnt do well after putting in only that amt of effort but at the same time i dont feel like i shld put in any more effort and somehow, i feel that its ok to contd like dat which obviously is not and which is y im introducing my 'reform myself' campaign. hahaha. if you can call it that. lolx.
kk. everybody enjoy yourselves this hols and dont let ur inner demons get you down!!
-from a not-so-sane ming
and i now no longer walk alone this road
heyy!! the hols officially start tmr! official to me anyway coz its the first monday in months that we dont have to be in sch...and we can actually waste our time the way we want to instead of being forced to spend six hrs in sch daily wasting time. wowee. sounds so promising :
haha..jkjk.. dunno y i absolutely had to start off on such a pessimistic note..lolx..we dont actually waste time in sch..haha...i gez learning abt things thats onli applicable to examinations is the way schools equip us for life and i honestly feel they are doing enough ;)
ok..ahaha..to whoever actually got the joke..i hope its not too lame..sorry..im being lame.
ok. stop lameness right now.
wasnt too happy with my ppr for last term and i promised myself i wld try my bloody hardest for once to bring my l1r5 to at least a respectable grade that wldnt make me feel like digging a hole and hiding inside everytime i look at my ppr. so i shall try my very very best to fulfill my promise to myself [how do you break a promise to yourself??!!] and fa fen du shi starting from nxt term! now thats coming from a veri veri ill-disciplined person so i wldnt expect too much in case i get disappointed. but the whole point of promising sth is to ensure that e other party wldnt get disappointed isnt it??! so whats the point of promising sth and den go, sorry i think you'll be disappointed so can you not place too much hopes on me. ! nvm. hahaha..some contradictions of life. everybodys scared to fall but the point is if u dont give yourself that fear in that first place you wont push yourself to jump over instead of falling str down. but at the same time you dont want to be too disappointed if you dont make it over and end up falling. get it?? haha...ok..
anyway.. so the main point in my long long story is that we have to have faith in ourselves and those ard us [esp God]. sorry if you feel cheated that after bringing you ard such a gigantic bush you end up looking at my weeds of philosophy. hahaha. it was todays gospel that had me thinking abt that..haha.. sorry if i sound like some religious lunatic aka helen choo but how can you possibly not think after listening to sth??!? sorry..at least im not forcing you to listen to me while you're standing and sweating on the grass while im strolling ard in some disgusting dress on the specs stand and forcing you to stand and look at me while i preach what i obviously do not practise..haha.. so be grateful..lolx.. jkjk.
so nxt time i shall not be afraid to study like shit and see if i do well. but for some weird reason i nv seem to be able to feel disappointed in myself. i mean other pple yes, of course but i never seem to feel like ive let myself down or sth. or even feel any remorse or regret at my high l1r5. dont noe y too. its like i noe dat i shldnt do well after putting in only that amt of effort but at the same time i dont feel like i shld put in any more effort and somehow, i feel that its ok to contd like dat which obviously is not and which is y im introducing my 'reform myself' campaign. hahaha. if you can call it that. lolx.
kk. everybody enjoy yourselves this hols and dont let ur inner demons get you down!!
-from a not-so-sane ming
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